Posted on 12-11-2009
Filed Under (Uncategorized) by Courtney_Cummz

9rk87pHey my boo’s! It’s Thursday and the weekend is almost here. Yay! I am looking forward to it! It’s going to be an awesome day today! I get to go finish shooting for Brazzers. I have so much fun working with them! I can’t even tell you all how excited I am about my swinger’s film in Tampa. I’ve almost got all of the couples that we will need. I am just looking for a few more. I’m thinking about also having some on backup just incase someone flakes out on us! But I am sooo stoked! I am working out details and getting all of the kinks ironed out. I can’t wait to meet you guys. It will be so much fun. Tampa has got so many cool people in it. I’m not sure if you know this but Tampa is actually the lighting capital of the U.S. There is so much energy in that town, I love it! Tampa is where I really fine tuned my spiritual side.

I love that some of you and I can connect on a “deeper” level. Dave O, that is so cool that you have already read his work. What is more ironic is that you probably read the book he put out after visiting his fathers grave. That is really cool. How was it? I should probably read it. I am reading The Vortex right now by Esther Hicks. I love her. Whenever life gets hectic and I am feeling like a pick me up, I can always turn to my books and beliefs. Something really resonated with me today while I was reading. Most of the time people aren’t a match to what they are really wanting. Because when you are asking for something you are standing in a place of feeling like you don’t have enough. And “beating the drum” of that which you don’t have. How many times do you hear someone say, “I could be happy if this… would happen.” We have to learn to be happy with or without it. Because while we are focused on not having it we are keeping ourselves from it. There really isn’t a shortage of anything in the world. Just lack of belief in having it. People in America really shouldn’t be starving. There is always someone who is willing to give a dollar, or you could even walk around and pick up change on the ground to buy something off of the dollar menu at McDonalds. But when people “beat the drum” of I am going to starve or I don’t have enough money, than this will always be true for them. Job-hunting is the same. I can’t begin to tell you all of the people who tell me they can’t find any work. I’m sorry, but you can find work. It might not be your ideal job, but something is there. But going out looking for employment with an attitude of I can’t find a job, you surely won’t than!

Something else that I really understood today. When we have negative things happen or people surrounding us. They really help us get clear on the way we want things to be. But often (and I think this especially happens in relationships) you will find yourself standing in a situation and want it to be better. Either you want your mate to be nicer or to stop doing that thing they do, or whatever it is. This person or problem is what got you to get so clear on what or how you wanted things to be. But now we usually make the mistake of expecting that person to become what we want. Do you follow? Lets use cheating as an example your boyfriend/girlfriend cheats on you. So from that you realize you don’t want to be cheated on and you would like a partner that is committed and faithful. Don’t most people expect that person to change? Or we say if they really loved me they wouldn’t do that. So many times people take back the cheater expecting them to turn into this new person that they have become very clear on wanting. I always say a man that cheats on his wife, is just that. A man that cheats on his wife. So we need to leave the cheater alone and get even more clear on how we want the next one to be. So that we can be open to receiving him or her instead of another cheater. Sometimes people don’t even know what they want. They just know what they DON’T want. And it will keep showing up in your experience over and over again. So ladies we especially need to stop thinking the men will change and only worry about changing what we want and ourselves. Men same rules apply. But we can’t be scared to move on to find it. Yes you will have to give up whomever or whatever it is. But really, obviously it wasn’t that great for you otherwise you would have been happy with it when you had it. And imagine how much happier you will be when you have exactly what it is in your life. I think it is really people’s jobs in life to harass you so you become clear on how we want it to be! Annoying people don’t sound so bad when you put it like that now huh?

Life is about having fun and finding relief. As long as you are reaching for your next good feeling thought you will be ok. And if it is hard to find a good feeling thought, than you’ve got to start somewhere and maybe small. Think about me naked, sitting on top of you, I hope that brings you some relief…lol. Seriously though babies. Everday we could be presented with things that we don’t like. But the world would be so different if we were all more concerned with how we feel. And if we focused on the next good feeling thought we would all be feeling good! How much more can we ask for?

I hope you are all having a good day! Find your happy thoughts


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