Posted on 15-10-2009
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Dancin’ dancin’ dancin’ that’s what I’ll be doing tonight babies so make sure you come out to see me! I will be in Oxnard, Ca tonight, Friday, and Saturday at the Spearmint Rhino. It is located at 630 Maulhardt Ave. So if you live in or around that area I’d love to see you. Cum stop by and let me show you a great night! I’m going to look so cute this weekend; I can’t wait for you guys to see my outfits. If you’ve been following me on Twitter, facebook, or myspace you probably see that I’ve been crazy busy. I shot a commercial for FyreTV.com the other day and worked from 9 am to 2 am. I was beat! It’s going to be an awesome commercial though. FyreTV.com is this system for people to be able to watch porn off of an on demand type box. It’s going to be so huge. They have put and spent a lot of money into this business. I think it will be really great! This way parents don’t have to worry about their kids getting into their porn and it won’t have to be on the computer either. You do need Internet to have it, but it doesn’t use your monitor. So make sure you’re on the look out for me on late night TV commercials. BET, VH1, Fox, and Comedy Central will be airing it. So let me know when you see it, incase you see it before I do…lol. You know I don’t get to watch T.V. a whole lot.

I had a really sad day on set. I was directing my Whack Jobs video and the male talent we had working found out that his father had passed away. I felt so bad! I have lost so many people who were close to me; however, I have never lost a parent. This young man is also in the army. He and his dad served our country together. They were trained in giving people the bad news of losing a family member. However, I don’t think any amount of training can prepare you for losing YOUR own family member. The army is real good at desensitizing people. He has a very hard shell. I was almost thankful that this happened to him while he was shooting with me. Instead of other Directors who may not have cared to hear about a talent’s personal life. I just hugged him and tried to remind him of all of the wonderful times he and his father had! I did feel though like he didn’t need to be working. So I told him please, please go home and deal with this. You can’t just keep things bottled up inside. Trust me I have learned the hard way. Feelings and emotions are a very important thing, and I really feel that it’s extremely important to honor them. Otherwise what would be the purpose of having them. I told him not to worry about the shoot. He was so sweet, he just wanted to keep on working. I had to put my foot down and say no. I told him that we would still pay him, so not to worry about losing out on the money, but that the most important thing is that he takes care of himself. So he did leave, I will definitely be checking in on him in a couple of days to make sure he’s doing alright! He is so sweet and good-looking, it was sad to see him go through this!

Oh I wanted to tell you all again about the fan signs. I still have hundreds and hundreds to get sent out. I am getting them done. Slowly but surely…lol. I actually fell asleep last night at 7pm. I was beat. But I can’t tell you the last time I went to bed that early…lol I guess my body needed it. I’m proud of how many I have gotten done so far though. Man I never expected all of the requests that I got at all! I’m so thankful that you guys like them. I know many of you have told me that many other girls don’t even respond to your messages let alone send you personalized pics, signs, etc. Understand it could be a full time job just keeping up with mail, messages, etc. So don’t be too hard on them. I just know how happy you guys make me, so I try to do anything I can to make you guys happy as well. I think it is the best part of my job. I really love the connections that I have made with you guys the most. So on this Give Thanks Thursday I am going to thank you all!! I like to make sure you ALL know how much I love and appreciate you. I love the support you all show me, every day! I even love my haters. Even though they can get under my skin sometimes, when I remember to remember I can love them too! Hurt people hurt people. So I always remember that!!

So I’ve got to get up and keep it movin, my phone has been blowing up all day. GRINDING!! It is all good, I love it! So get up with me and get ready to have a fabulous weekend babies. Let me know if I should look out for you this weekend at the Rhino. I will be looking forward to it!!

And thanks again for your patience with the fan signs. You will be getting them soon, I promise!!



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Posted on 15-10-2009
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Hey babies, it’s Wacky Wednesday and boy am I feeling Wacky!! I have had a crazy couple of days. Why oh why have like 6 or 7 of my ex’s hit me up in the past couple of days?? I think it is hysterical. I find out that people who broke my heart can still be all up in my business and my character! WTF? we break up but you still stalk me?? Really? I think it is funny because when a girl gets her heart broken to a guy it is just like whatever. But oh boy don’t you dare fuck over a guy and god for bid break his heart. It is like the worst thing in the world. It sucks for everyone equally! But why the hell are the ex’s hitting me up?? What do they want? They don’t want me; obviously our relationship didn’t work out for one reason or another. Do I really want to go there again? Do I really need to talk to these guys? Most of which completely left me a little broken. It’s all good now, I have found more out about myself and been able to spend time on me! But tell me, I need some manly advice. What do your ex’s want when they hit you up out of nowhere? What is really the point of all of it?? They have totally got me thinking. I decided that I would get it out in some blog therapy….lol. So here is how I feel about them now.

Miguel~ you were the angel of my eye. I loved the spiritual connection that you and I shared. We would communicate through our dreams, you could finish my sentences. Thats such an amazing connections thats just unexplainable.I really wish you the best of luck and all the happiness in the world.

Ken~ Wow, you had a great impact on my life. Being pregnant and experiencing a miscarriage was one of the craziest things I have still ever even gone through. It took some time but I can now forgive you for the way that you treated me. I forgive you for blaming me for the miscarriage and making me feel like it was my fault. Babies that was the craziest thing, I took 5 tests and they all came back negative. I had to actually get blood work to say that I was. That was a sad time for me. But I do forgive you for walking away from me. I’m glad you have found yourself a wife and 2 beautiful kids. I’m glad it wasn’t me…lol. ;)

Niv~ I must admit and I know you’d agree that our relationship was mostly based on sex. Don’t get me wrong, it was great sex. But I do forgive you for the verbal abuse that you put me through regarding my job. I don’t know why we really tried the relationship thing; I knew you couldn’t handle it from the beginning. I’m glad you were able to let me go. Although breaking up with me via text message while I was working in Alaska was unacceptable after 2 1/2 yrs. I hope you find the love of your life and for the sake of that girl and you and your family. I hope she’s Jewish.

Kerv~ I always had fun when I was chillin with you. I just wish you were more loyal and honest to me. I thank god for my visions and my connection that I have with my inner being that I can always know what is right for me. The dreams of you cheating couldn’t have been any clearer, but I do thank you for coming clean and letting me know that my dreams were right. You could have denied until you died. I am glad we went our separate ways; I hope that you find what you’re looking for.

M~ you truly were a best friend to me. I enjoyed our workouts, the track, dinners, and your homemade pasta. I am glad that you’ve moved on and found the love of your life. I hope you forgive me for any hurt I may have caused your heart. You deserve the best so I hope you never settle for anything less. I’m glad you’ve found a relationship that makes you so happy.

Mono~ you seem to live a double life. You were like my real life 007. You always have a ton going on in your life. I’m never sure if it is fantasy or reality that you’re living in. But I do hope that you find some happiness within yourself. I used to feel so sorry for you. From cancer, to losing your daughter, to losing your job. I always felt bad. I had to let you go. I can’t change you, nor did you want me to and that is fine. You should just figure out a way to keep it a little more real. It really is a small world, never forget that. And Mono, “A man who cheats on his wife is just that, a man who cheats on his wife” Oh and you can stop texting me! Thank you!

you were my heart. I must say the love that I just felt ontop of the world when i was with you. From the day I graduated high school until u passed when I was college I have to say I forgive u for being found dead while cheAting. I was so angry with u about cheating instead of mourning your death but now I realize every man cheats. I was young and I had to experience a tramatic situation and wasnt sure how to handle my emotions but I do realize now that u were loyal to me emotionally. I was the woman whom your son loved & wanted to be around. I was the woman whom u spent holidays with. I was the woman u came home to at night. I forgive u for all your mistakes and I love u. May u rest in peace my precious Ivan. You will always hold a special place in my heart and I hope u aren’t too furious about this porn thing. It’s alot of fun! Remeber how we used to watch it together? We loved it now I satisfy others :) god bless u! I love when u say hi in my dreams, it’s amazing!! I let u rest boo. I forgive u.

So there it is, my direct message to the Ex’s. When you don’t want to date me, why still follow and stalk me in cyber world??

I do believe that it’s called a break-up because something is broken. Often people try to get back together and usually it doesn’t work. I’ve really learned that you’ve got to keep moving forward and never look back.

This was actually really nice to be able to get some of my personal life out on blast. It’s like having the last word in a fight…lol. I can just write and get out how I feel, without having to hear anyone else’s B.S. coming back at me. Lol. Very therapeutic. I’m so tired. And I still have a ton to do. Whoo I need an energy drink.

I hope everyone is having a fabulous day! It’s Wednesday, the week is almost over. I’m going to be dancing at Spearmint Rhino in Oxnard Thur, Fri, and Sat. You should cum check me out! I’d love to see you!

In the meantime babies keep it real, keep the faith, and remember, “We don’t forgive because we are weak, we forgive because we are strong enough to know that people make mistakes”



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